I need to work on is CONSISTENCY.
This is something that I struggle with a LOT.
Unfortunately that is a big part of ADHD. It is very easy for me to get distracted, or to simply lose interest.
I want to be more consistent. I want to be able to do what I say, when I say I will do it. I want to achieve my goals!
I have had since what feels like forever a goal to lose weight. That goal has been stagnant for a while now due to stress and anxiety and of course my adhd.
Now that I am starting to get things under control, it is easier for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like I am actually moving in the right direction. I became a beachbody coach last year with the hopes of earning a bit of extra cash, but mostly because I wanted to be that person that I saw in my coach. That person that shows up, and pushes through and inspires.
That person, while inside me somewhere, has never actually come out. I have slacked off and let myself make excuses and pushed off starting OVER and OVER and OVER again. This has led me to where I am now.
Unfortunately where I am now is not where I want to be at all. I am not happy. Not active, and not having an easy time managing my binge eating. (Although this last part has gotten better)
I am working on making changes and being consistent, and that is why I picked back up with my blog, because I found before that writing was a really great way for me to release that anxiety that I would build up.
So now comes the fun part. I need to set some sort of fitness goal. I want to get back into good habits, and I think that starts with eating better. I know that when I drank shakeology, I felt better. I was making sure that I was getting in all the vitamins and minerals that I needed (not only through shakeology, of course, I was eating healthier too.) I know that right now my BIGGEST struggle with food is that I am finding that my medicine is surpressing my appetite completely, and so I just kind of forget to eat. That, in turn, leads to me feeling VERY hungry way later in the day. (This is where the cycle really starts) I am hungry, but I am past the point where I am able to handle the hunger feelings, so I begin to get overwhelmed. I go to the kitchen to cook, and look around helplessly, and panic. I start to try to cook something, and wind up feeling like a failure.
That cycle continues until the point where my wife either has to come remove me from the kitchen and finish cooking what I started (if I started something) OR we will wind up ordering something in order to both avoid being overwhelmed. I can imagine its not particularly easy for her to have to come into the kitchen and basically pick me up and carry me out, and then have to help me calm down while cooking something that she has no idea what it is.
I am hoping to get back on track with shakeology and use it as a tool to feel better. Both physically, as I am sure that I will be getting more nutrients in my life, but also mentally, since if I can manage my hunger, my anxiety may be easier to control.
Once I get some consistency there I think it will be easier for me to apply it to other things. My ultimate goal is to get to the point where I feel like a functioning human again. (Although I realize that a) that definition is definitely subjective, and b) That goal will take a VERY long time to achieve if I hold myself to my usual standards.)
Is there anyone else out there who reads my blog who struggles with consistency? Do any of you have any tips? If you do please leave them in the comments! I would love to test them out!
I have a bad habit of trying to take on way too many new habits, (or trying to revive old too many old ones) all at once. I really think that the key to my consistency is going to be taking it in small steps. (This is where I think I will struggle the most) When I start feeling successful (usually within a few days) I start to try to add to it, and push the boundaries. That creates more stress, and things to think about. I am surprisingly good at managing it. The problem is that I am not your typical “adhd” patient… although, I suppose that would fit to all of us.
A lot of folks who have ADHD may be the type to seek instant gratification, that usually is not me. I have accepted that in order to lose weight, and get fit, I need to let the process take the time it needs. BUT, here is where the problem is, I can get consistent and focus for about two weeks, and in that time I can even see great results, (as long as I am truly focused) what I can’t do is overcome obstacles when I am not expecting them.
Say for example, I get a bill that I wasn’t expecting, or I miss an appointment because I didn’t have it written down properly in my planner. That basically throws my whole system out of whack, and I can not handle it. I can handle obstacles that I am able to predict. (I am possibly the master at over planning) Unfortunately, unforseen obstacles are a part of life. This is why I think that I may have an easier time if I take on one small habit. (I just need to try to hold myself back from starting new ones before I am ready.)
Hopefully I am able to update soon with some tips of my own on how to handle all of this, but as I said before, if you have tips, I will gladly take them! I could really use the advice.
I think that was all that I had to discuss today. I need to get some water and read some in my big packet of articles that we are supposed to read for next term, so that I do not get overwhelmed. (see what I mean by “master over planner”) I know that school does not start for another month, but I am trying to avoid any sort of stress that may come up from being assigned too much to read at once, since I know that I do read slower than others due to my inability to focus (thanks ADHD)
Hope that all is well out there in internet land, and that those who are reading this are having a great day! Here is my final thought for the day: